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Blessings in Perseverance

My Studio on 12-8-11
My Studio on 12-13-11

After months of planning to have our Holiday Boutique, it was time to roll up sleeves and get busy.  Since I work in my Studio daily, I literally had to wait to the last-minute in order to clear everything out.  I’ve planned all along to paint the floor, re-do the walls, get rid of the ugly lights, etc.  Having this event on the calendar made it a priority….. as work and opening a new business had kept this on the back burner.

As an artist my mind is always designing and decorating the spaces around me.  It’s this blessing of vision, clearly a gift from God, that keeps the wheels spinning and allows me to create.  The frustration comes into play because there are not enough hours in the day to create….. and change….. and build….. and invent and seek out.

There have been so many years in my life where I tried to do it all myself.  I did do it all and it didn’t work.  I could have never reached the point I’m at…. which by the way….. isn’t close to where I’m going…. if I hadn’t surrendered to the fact that it’s not just getting up everyday and working your tail off!

Believe it or not…. this time last year…. I didn’t know I would be here today.  I had been struggling to get out of a bad place in my life.  My relationship with God was in an OK place, but I hadn’t learned to listen! (my mama would agree for sure…. LOL)  Just last Thanksgiving, I didn’t have enough money to buy a turkey to feed my family. Meanwhile, I pressed forward and helped deliver turkeys and all the trimmings to families in need with Wave City Care….. quietly keeping my painful and embarrassing secret.  Thank God I sold a piece of furniture that day and was able to buy groceries.  Did I mention I was driving a BMW? LOL!  Yes, I’ve had a lot of money…… and I’ve lost a lot of money!

I’ve learned that through my blessings, my prayers, my perseverance, my hard work, etc……  that I can’t do it all myself.  Without the obvious help from the Big Man…. I could never accomplish my goals and dreams without my family, my friends and those great people I’ve been fortunate enough to have work with me at CHARTREUSE.

I used to have the mentality of “getting by”.  I didn’t have the understanding that I needed to take risks and hire people I didn’t think I could afford.  I had a hard time asking for help and lacked the confidence to delegate. I’m proud to say that’s no longer my way of thinking.  I COULD NEVER HAVE DONE THIS WITHOUT HELP!  Take a look at the photos.  I did a lot of the work…but so did a few other people. And without their help it would never have happened.  (see the event photos on facebook for the latest look of the studio)



Holy Cow !!!

So, you know the old saying, “be careful what you wish for”?  Well, I’m glad I wasn’t careful…. I’m glad I wasn’t cautious….. I’m glad I didn’t listen to the “get-a-real-jobbers”!

WE ALL HAVE DREAMS!  Some of us talk about them…. some of us think about them …. and some of us have temporarily put them in the back of our minds because we have bought into the lie that we’re not being “realistic”.

For most of my life I’ve been the kind of person that signed up for events that sounded cool without really knowing what I was getting into; the kind of person who didn’t read instructions; the kind of person who jumped in the pool without checking the depth!  I even signed up for a half marathon….. having never run or trained for that type of thing.  I figured since I used to play sports (many years ago) how hard could it be?  Well, it was hard.  But I did it.  I finished and I have the medal to prove it.  Not to mention the ugly photo of me crossing the finish line.  And, for this very crazy behavior I’ve been called careless, irresponsible and even childish.  Mind you….. I’ve made good grades and held great jobs and owned other businesses… that were successful….. and were opened debt free without grants or loans!

On the flip side…. I have had failures like everyone else and have had to deal with illness, death, financial difficulties, etc.  BUT… even during the really ugly and dark moments of my life I managed to still have my dream.  When I would pull it out of box and get rejuvenated and share my wishes (depending on who was around at the time) I would be encouraged by my Mother and GOOD friends….but would also be discouraged and even made to feel silly by others.

So without giving you my entire life story, I WOULD LIKE TO TELL YOU THIS…..

Our dreams are not just mere thoughts to be set aside for when we’re alone and bored with our lives.  They’re not just mental escapes from a life that we’ve settled for because of our circumstances.  Our dreams are placed in our hearts by God and the only person keeping us from making our dreams a reality is us.  Our dreams may change…what we think is our dream today can grow into a whole other direction tomorrow…..but it’s still our dream!

Study…..research…..investigate…….pray….. and for the love of God DO NOT CONTINUE TO SHARE YOUR DREAMS WITH NEGATIVE, NON-SUPPORTIVE PEOPLE!  Surround yourself with knowledgeable, encouraging and successful people who are not interested in keeping you from getting yours.  Successful and confident people are not threatened by the success of others….. they are fueled by it! And then…..when the time is right (usually sooner than later) TAKE A LEAP OF FAITH AND JUMP! I did it ….. and HOLY COW …… what I’m living is far more than I dreamed!  I am so thankful that I finally did it!  IT IS NEVER TOO LATE!  And now I just need to make sure to not catch the disease of complacency…..  Our future should always be bigger than our past or even our present….. even when our present is good.  That’s not to say we shouldn’t stop and take time to bask and enjoy….we should….. for a while….and as our dreams grow and change….so should we.     Cindy

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