So it’s almost 2 am and I should be asleep. I passed out early after a long day of working, making decisions, dealing with clients, contractors, etc. Here I am….wide awake…..planning…..designing…..contemplating….. I am so excited about this season in my life. I didn’t even know I really wanted to open another business. I was happy painting and selling my furniture and working from home. Who needs all the responsibility? I’m happy and content, right? Wrong! I need more of everything! And I really don’t like the thought of contentment or complacency.
If you’re like me and love to grow and change and experiment and take chances, you understand what I’m talking about. I used to think that there was something wrong with me because I redecorated a room too often (according to others) or because I had so many likes and interests. I am always changing and rearranging the furniture or art on the wall. I really believed that maybe there was some deep seeded issue of discontentment that kept me from being happy….. even though I was happy! Why did I always feel the need to change things? Why couldn’t I be happy with my new and ever-changing favorite color?
I would go to other people’s houses and see the same room…unchanged….as it was before. How peaceful their life must be without all the chaos of redecorating and remodeling. I want to be like that…… NOT! I don’t think everyone should be like me and it’s ok if you are happy with something and want to keep it that way…. What am saying is that I love the life I’ve created…..I love creating…..and re-creating! Cindy